God why is this happening

So I am so fed up with every one and everything I just want to cry and hold a pillow and scream I can't help that everything has gone to shit. You know that feeling like no matter what you do it's not going to get any better. Im not sucidal or anything I just want it to get a little brighter and for things to get better but no they fucking don't do they? I know they will we all have those days right. I just am sick of everyone saying that highschool is the best years of there lives no it's not and if it is you must have a pretty shitty life. at least I have a boyfriend who cares about me and a cat so Im not doing too bad oh and I have that one gay male friend so I think Im doing alright every highschool girl needs a gay male...and a cat. You get a boyfriend as an added bonus... Bone-us I couldn't help myself I just had to.